Hello friends ,hope you all are fine and happy if not then can you please try to smile just for once .
I m going to discuss something very emotional or even a topic we all used to avoid even I myself ,but still I mustured up my courage today to express what I feel or what oh god it's hard to express even ... Ohk so it's about the end ,about life about death ...
Hope you all will neglect my small mistakes as emotions can make people think those things which doesn't even exist .
I still remember that day when heard the news that ,she is no more that night ,she was wrapped in all plain stainless white cloth we all were hoping for her to wake up but still that was just a hope for nothing ,the night was long I can't fell asleep I want to spend each and every second with her . My eyes were searching for her movements ,ears logged for her speech and my Senses for her touch . There was a deadly silence at that time, nobody spoke tho it felt like we still can hear those words of silence . Not even an inch was visible of her body , not even a single strand of her white hairs . She was lying in front of us for hours but still we were not able to wake her up . My heart was restless as I wasn't able to believe that she is gone untill when people spl the males of family prepared a wooden sage for her they kept her on that sage and started saying "raam naam Satya h" I still remember those words . They did haunt me for many nights and days . She was gone ,she was on a pathway which leads to another life ,another journey . I thought I was so useless ki I can't bring her back to life .( Dumb of me )
I cried for hours non stop ,why she was gone like that ?why? I questioned to god ,questioned to myself this is what we call fate what we call destiny . Nobody stopped me from crying nobody encourages it either .
Days passed I still missed her , after 2 months everything seems normal again as if she never existed in our life. I was like is it okay to lead our life normal again ,she won't feel like we didn't missed her ,those days felt like I was a criminal who committed a unforgivable crime .
After 5-6 months everything goes back to what it was before , people got busy with their jobs , children with there online classes. Something was off i guess I told myself that it's been long since I heard her voice I started forgetting how her voice sounds like that was quite depressing for me but more like a sin . Her room was empty whenever I passed through that room I still wish to find her lying there on her bad . Her smell vanishes away ,I forgot her voice and started urging for her it ,for her face ,her touch ,her food many things .
Those useless hopes gave my thoughts wings and later on i realised that yes she is gone ,gone to a new journey she won't be back just shrug off these thoughts but kya Karu pagal Hu kahin na khain umeed Mari ni thi meri then later on aakhir maan hi liya kab tak khudse jhuth Bolti.
It's been a year she is gone I m completely fine now , everything went back to normal I found a new way to remember her voice (vedios of course ) ab unhe Yaad krke aankho mey aasun toh Aate h par voh jhuthi umeed nhi .
Isn't it very strange ki yeh jaante hue bhi Jo gya h voh vaapis nhi aayega we still live in our own world build up jhuthi umeedein which hurts after some time . Person with whom we spent our most of the life when he or she is gone we get back to our life as if nothing happened ,I guess this is what we call life . Behate samudra ki Tarah chalti rehati h rukti nhi jitni bhi rukaavate Aaye apni gati banaye rakhti h.
People should accept these kind of facts on earlier basis so you won't get hurt by your 0 hopes later on ...
We all have gone through this stage of life , very painful for the relatives, for the family members ,friends etc . While we were mourning for them they choose to hit a new beginning . So we all should just wave our hands say goodbye and let them go although we don't want to still we have to so that they have great after life .
A thousands words won't bring you back
I know because I have tried
Neither will a thousands tears
I know because I have cried
By - Kily Dunbar
Beautiful words ... whenever you feel you don't want to believe thet fact then just recall these words.😊😊
Hope you all can relate, can place yourself in my shoe ,able to read it as it's your story and hope you find this blog connecting or good .
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