Farewell

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उस सड़क की ओर फिर जाना हुआ था हाथ मे बस्ता तो नही उसका एहसाह फिरभी हुआ था ,

देखा जब उस खिड़की की तरफ, तो सब मुस्कुराते से याद आए थे,

वो बीते पूराने मस्ती भरे दिन फिर आंखो की चौखट पर आए थे ।

क्लास का वो बेंच जहां कंपस से बहुत सी यादें गड़ी गई थी,

वो सफेद दीवार जहां रंगो से छाप छोड़ी गई थी ,

क्लास मे छुप छुप कर टिफिन खाना तो आचार की खुशबू से पकड़े जाना ,

टेस्ट मे पास होने के लिए फर्रे लेजाना ,

यह पल अब न मिलेंगे दुबारा  ।

स्कूल मे बैठे बैठे छुट्टी होने का इंतज़ार वो CT पीरियड का एन्ड और बैक फुल पैक ,

टीचर के न आने पर धमाल करना , 

वो कॉरिडोर की लड़ाई ,

वोह टीचर की ठुकाई ,

उनके नए नए नाम रखना ,

मुश्किल आने पर गैंग की धमकी और दोस्त को कॉल करना,

वो क्लास बंक कर स्कूल मे घूमना ,

अब कहां आयेंगे यह दिन ।

आज break up रोना, 

तो मार्कशीट पर वही मार्क्स सिर्फ 16।

स्पोर्ट्स के पीरियड पर सब्जेक्ट टीचर का कब्जा होजाना,

वो क्लासरूम से वोशरूम का सफर बड़ा बन जाना ।

इन खट्टे मीठे पलो को याद कर आंखो मे पानी आया हे।

छोटू, मोटू ,कालू यह नाम अब दिल मे ही रह जाएंगे ,

वो पल जो यारो के साथ बिताए थे ,

अब दिल की संदूकों मे कैद होजाएंगे ।

उधर अब दुबारा वापिस जाना नही होगा,

जिस कॉरिडोर मे बातों की खिचड़ी बनती थी और गपशप का तड़का लगता था ,

 रिसेस मे वो फर्स्ट फ्लोर की सीढ़ी  अब हमारी नही होगी,

जिसे शान से अपना अड्डा कहा करते थे ,

वोह अब किसी और का ठिकाना होगा ।

वो स्कूल की लड़ाई 

 जो कभी इतनी बड़ी लगती थी ,

 अब हमारी बचकानी याद बन गई ।

देखते ही देखते न जाने कब बड़े होने लग गए 

वोह A+ से लेकर  C ग्रेड,

नजाने कबसे हमारा फ्यूचर डिसाइड करने लग गए ।

वोह रिपोर्ट कार्ड जो कभी ग्रीन, सिल्वर ,येलो, ब्लू स्टार्स से भरी होती थी ,

वोह अब मेरे सपनो का एक दरवाजा बन गए ।

 आज से 10 साल बाद "तू" से तुम "आप" होजाओगे ,

कहां साथ मे पड़ा करते थे तब अनजान होजाओगे।

 

यह मुलायम हाथ जो  blackboard पर लिखा करती थी

उनके मुरझाने का समय होजाएगा ,

हम बड़े तो होंगे मगर यह आशियाना वैसे का वैसा ही रह जाएगा ।

यह नजाने क्या वक्त आया  है,

हमारे जाने की  खबर लाया है,

इसको नए सफर की शुरुआत मानू या ,

एक अनोखे सपने का अंत,

इसका जवाब अभी भी नही आया है।

इन यादों को सौगात मे देने के लिए शुक्रिया ।

अलविदा साथियों जाने का लम्हा आया  है,

अलविदा साथियों अलविदा।।।

It's dark in my dreams

 So I don't know how light feels and what darkness meant 

don't know but but there is still something in mid in ,between them ,

I was in a room with proper lightning,

 I stood up went to the darkest room

 closed my eyes I didn't felt any change  but once ,when I opened my eyes I see everything around me was ominous tides of night 

   I ran out from there with the fear. "Ki koi USS andhere mey mujhe mujhse na cheen le  "

Not a single ounce of happiness 

No one to help 

It was pitch dark and I was jailed

Felt sick that can't show my scars too 

Darkness prevailed over me and no moon was there 

Should I try harder to run once again ,

Or should I just stop as I know it

Won't get me anywhere.

Man that was suffocating I died again n again .just to reincarnate at the same place 

Even death was tough for me 

I can't die , the damm god i cursed him 

Why ,why you can't let me even die 

As i know even he was laughing at me 

Being all in a pathetic state 

The god was none other then like Lucas for me 

I cursed him everytime I let him 

Belittle 

Tho that Lucas left me alone 

He let me realise no freaking person is gonna help you out untill you help yourself

No one is going to swim in your stead 

If you want dig up the aragonite.

I used all my strength to look for a door 

My life was like an endless book 

I read it everyday but there was no end ,

But when I took the another step ahead , I founded ,  two doors full of life 

A glimmer of hope just like the inseparable pair of Chandler and Joey.

One was a easy way while another was tough to go through .

I then thought of giving up the light to follow,to open the door  of darkness where no truth lies 

Not a single piece of soul left 

Eyes full of lifelessness,

And heart of crude blood 

I loathed myself to be like this even in my  heed 

when the time came I still chose the light ,no matter how tempting it was to decide

 

But then the biggest joke of my life happened 

I felt from my bed and opened my eyes. 

~ DIvINe ❤️🌸❤️

Hope you all are fine . it's my fault that am here after such a long time as compensation I promise to publish a post once in a month so even you guys have plenty have of time to read and think over .

As always suggestions are most welcome , don't forget to read, share and comment.

ख्वाब था टूट गया

 जिंदगी के ऐसे मोड़ पर खड़ा हूं,

और सोच रहा हूं जो बीत गया क्या वो सच था या ख्वाब था जिसमें जीते आया ,

अस्पताल के वार्ड में पंखे की खड़ -खड़ आवाज सुनकर ये खयाल मुझे चैन से मरने न देगा ,

तो आज सच और फरेब का परदा इस चूं -चूं करते बिस्तर पर हटाना पड़ेगा ।

यह सच बड़ा ही अजीब है पर इस से मुकरना मुझसे न होगा।। 

सन् 1975 का वो दिन था ,

आज फिर से बगल वाले पहलवान राजू के घर से आम चुराने थे, पलटन थी अपनी ,

पर उसे कभी चोरी का नाम न दिया ,

बड़का बोलता था" यारों ये चोरी नहीं यादें बटोर रहें है "

यादें बटोरते न जाने कब वो सात साल का लड़का जो बारिश के पानी में कश्ती बनाता 14 साल का हो आया ,

जवानी का जोश था और नए - नए फैशन का आगाज़ ,

दिलीप कुमार जैसे कपड़े और राजेश खन्ना के गानों पर नाचने का अलग ही सरूर होता था ।

वो स्कूल बंक करके सिनेमा जाना और मौहल्ले के दारा सिंह से मुलाकात किसी दूध में मक्खी के गिरने से कम ना थी ।

मेरा (अरमान) क्या जाने पहली महोब्बत क्या होती थी ,

वो तो मेरा वो ख्वाब था जो मैने 18 बरस का होकर देखा ,

नई सीढ़ी पर कदम रखा था कॉलेज की लड़की सुनीता को दिल दे बैठा था ।

सलमान की' तेरे नाम 'देखकर बालों का पोस्टमार्टम करवा तो लिया था और फ्री में बापू जी का रेडियो भी सुन लिया ।

उसका नंबर तो दूर, बात करने में भी हाए तौबा होती थी,

 उन चारों के कहने पर एक प्रेम पत्र भी लिख डाला ,आज भी संभाल कर रखा है 

क्योंकि कभी हिम्मत ही न हुई उसे गुलाब के साथ देने की ।

ना जाने क्या लिखा था मेरे नसीब में 

मगर सपनों में शादी हमारी हो चुकी थी ,

ये ख्वाब भी मेरा तब टूटा जब उस सुनीता की शादी फिक्स हो चुकी थी ।

जमकर पी थी उस दिन, उसकी याद में नहीं दोस्तों ने जो मेरी ले ली थी उसके गम में ।

शेरों की टोली ने यह तय कर लिया था प्यार नहीं करेंगे ,

पर क्या करें कमीना दिल कभी शीला तो कभी रीमा पर फिसल ही जाता था ।

बड़ा हो गया तो असल जिंदगी में पैर रखा ,

बाप गुजर गया और घर का बड़ा था 

उस दिन पैरों तले जमीन खिसक गई ,मां की सुनी कलाई देख और छोटी बहन की आंखों में भोलापन 

जिसे न पता था कि क्या हुआ ,उसे तो समझा दिया था की पापा दूर गए है बाद में आयेंगे ,

  मगर सच तो मेरी आंखों से निकल रहा था ।

न पढ़ाई पूरी ,हुई न सपने 

ये ख्वाब ही था जो टूट गया।

 पास के पंचर की दुकान वाले ने तरस खाकर काम दे ही दिया,

पैसा कमाया तो , उस दिन पता लगा कि बाप की वो मार जो सिनेमा जाने पर पड़ती थी उसका मतलब क्या था ।

बड़ा अफसर न सही इतना काबिल तो बना दिया था हालात ने की बहन की शादी और मां का गुजारा कर लिया था ।

26 साल का होते ही हाथों में काम का बोझ दिखता ,तो कंधों पर जिम्मेदारी ।

मां ने व्याह तो रचा दिया था ,बाकी घर मैने बसा लिया 

बड़े उतार चढ़ाव आए जिंदगी में जो मैने और मेरी पत्नी सुशीला ने साथ में झेल लिए।

देखते ही देखते बेटा हो आया ,

अब बाप बना था तो ,अपने मरे हुए बाप को समझने लगा था ।

पता नहीं लगा कब उसको चलना सिखाते ,खुद लाठी पकड़ने लग पड़ा ।

आज मौत दस्तक दे रही है अपनी प्रिय को छोड़ने का समय आया है ,

बहुत से सवाल अभी भी बाकी हैं ,बहुत से ख्वाब अभी भी बाकी है ,

मगर मौका हाथ से दौड़ा जा रहा है ,

पलक झपकते बचपन बीत गया  

एक बार और पलक झपकाई बड़ा हो गया 

जब आखिरी बार झपकाई तो आंखे बन्द करने का समय आ गया 

अब मौका मिला है उन खूबसूरत लम्हों को याद करने का 

असलियत और ख्वाब को फिर से जीने का ।

अब आंखें बंद कर रहा हूं उन यादों को पीछे छोड़े जा रहा हूं ,अलविदा साथियों 

अपना आखिरी सलाम दिए जा रहा हूं ,

अलविदा !!!साथियों अलविदा!!!

Hope you like this small poem written by me special thanks to Varsha my one of the dearest sibling jisney poori poem hindi mey type kari thanks alot 🌸🌸✨✨

Waiting for your comments 🌸✨

And hope ki you all will recite this poem to your elders and parents as they can Relate to it more .🌸🌸♥️✨♥️✨

Hardcore

 It's very hard trying to live my life 

Everytime I move on I went even deep inside

The loneliness surounded me no one was there,

To keep me company .

I was hungry tho food was there 

I was frustrated tho no one bothered me 

I was crying tho no one hit me 

I was sorrunded by all the emotions I never felt.

I felt guilty tho any of these things happening to me wasn't my fault .

All the negativity became my friends 

Positive vibes were no less then hell .

That was late when I realized 

I kept the door closed of my happiness 

By neglecting all the good things from my bad time around .

But I still stand the chance to change who I became then ,

Balance is what added flavour to my life 

Co-operations with my family , were tangy and sour  kept me awake for the nights ,

I had dark circles but was not exhausted at all.

Kindness and help from my peers  serve as the sweet dish to my appetite .

When I thought back of the time now ,

It wasn't easy to overcome still thanks to everyone , who helped me in those toughest hours of my journey.

All the dearies ,choices can be complex many times but you have to think wisely everytime. 

Help yourself first ,stand up !

only then you will find the bright light of this universe .

Plz share your comments , it's pleasure to see a active participation. Suggestions are always welcome.😁😁😁♥️♥️

So till next blog ... Peace out ♥️♥️

Deflowered (part-2)

 Hello everyone hope you all are doing fine and leading a happy life .  

In India ,

*India recorded an average of 87 rapecases daily in 2019 and overall 4,05,861 cases of crime against women during the year, a rise of over 7% from 2018, the latest government data released on September 29, 2020.

*One rape was reported every 16 minutes in Indiain 2019.

Not only girls even boys are counted too. This is what the census is like and these are all about registered cases ,still  so many unregistered cases are there,Jo  samaaj k darr se ,bejjati k darr Kabhi file hi nhi hote . 

These are all facts, we can't change.

In our previous post we all got to know about Ayisha , her life, her journey ,her struggle and her sorrowful past.

And this story is about the same only. Brief jist : Ayisha a teen ,who got pregnant after getting bruttaly raped and decided to keep her baby  . I have told you about her decision but not about the struggle she faced .

In Indian society after ,sexually assault ,according to them ,Zindagi vhi Ruk jaati h and by any chance, she got pregnant that means a Hell. And for god sake if she decides to keep the baby like Ayisha ,means bichare zinda toh honge lekin pal pal maut k ghaat utaare jaayenge(commo

n thinking) , har second izzat ki dhajjiyaan udaayi jaayegi ,Ganda khoon , slut , and many things . Ayisha faced the same thing when she decided to keep the baby kya Kuch nhi Kaha Hoga  logon ne but she choose to block all those comments and to move on with what she decided. 

As one of my friend said 

"Indian society and I don't think it  was possible to her to be a mother as such a young age she wasn't physically , financially , emotionally  and mentally ready for this. It is easier said than done  as giving birth to a child and raising a child are two different things . And she was ready to abort the child untill she knew that she can't conceive again so she could adopt a child when she was ready for being a mother financially and mentally . I won't support  giving such a life to a child  Which is worse than hell because he won't be able to live peacefully as he will not get his rights will be discriminated and will have to fight for each and every single thing  and it's no benifit in living like that ." - Anusha .

This is what girls like Ayisha fear ,ki they won't be able to live peacefully ,will be discriminated and have to fight continuously. I won't deny these things as we all know it's the bitter truth of  society.(rest read further also)

Another thing now which is totally different ,so sorry but my intentions are not to harm anyone ,

so another point of view ,

"Hi Don'take me wrong but I feel the view presented here is quite heroic and not practical. It's ok if it's a film or serial, to show a happy ending. But in real life your story actually starts from here. I feel it's rarely that people take this decision until and unless they can't abort the child due to medical reasons. 

Also, the motive of the person doing wrong was to hurt you and ruin your life. And you have done it yourself now. Having a child at such a young age and that too being a single mother is not a piece of cake.

Can't even imagine what she has to go through in INDIAN SOCIETY and of course her career is also totally ruined. It might be looking generous and  motherly keeping the child, but when you think deeply, you realise the moment the child comes in this world, he will have to fight with every force tagging and disgracing him and his mom. 

So, simply it won't be a good childhood to go through. Don't kill the child, but give a life to him that is worse than hell. And ruin your life to the greatest possible extent,  when it could all have been ok with moving on.This is what this solution represents. Yes, I agree it's not that easy as it seems, but difficult way will give you a fruitful life and the emotionally chosen one will be giving a harsh and humiliating one. If you are mentally strong enough, go for keeping the child, but if you have even slightest of the doubt, abort it. This is the solution according to me."- ARSHDEEP

Now would like to share my thoughts, my point of view here , first it's not like a tv'c it's not  for sure like ki It's only possible in Hindi drama ,then I must say ki it's just a "veham" these things can exist, can happen too and it's not like ki everytime if a girl got raped then conceived ,took the decision to raise the child ,only have a dead end or bad ending why we think like that ?why? If we say ki nothing is impossible then why it is not possible ? It's not completely compulsory ki she will only meet disgusting people who will taunt her on the basis for her ,she will also meet those people who will support her stand  up for her and those people will make impossible " I AM POSSIBLE".  Just because I didn't mention what she suffered doesn't mean ki idk what she would have gone thru.       

I know it's not a piece of cake but she decided that so she already have thought about ki what it will be like in future . When  These things happen ,koi aisa decision leta h toh hum pahele hi yeh sochana shuru KR dete h ki she must have gone insane ,took the decision emotionally, not practical enough ,but yeh bhul jaate h ki she might have thought it through beforehand ,why can't we keep this in our hypothesis too ,pahele SE yhi bolna ki it's wrong without asking about their POV is wrong .

 And I strongly disapproves ki after giving birth her career will be ruined ,how?  In ancient times women used to conceive in their teens only and still they were able to have a good life and good career too, there are so many single mothers around us who got pregnant at young age conceive and now are successful . It's all in our mind that's it ,just a myth nothing else.  Hum yeh Bolte h "aurat chahe toh kya Kuch nhi KR Sakti "so apply bhi krna chahiye . Zindagi Ruk nhi jaati h voh chalti rehati h lekin thammte hamare kadam h .   About the baby ,having a life worse then hell I must say one thing ki kya garauntee h if she have another child after getting married will be respected, won't be disgraced, if that is the truth then this is also the truth ki even that child have to suffer and will you all be able to say ki his life is worse then hell , no kyunki that is the kid after marriage that's it ,he would have a surname, a father's name bas ,toh Hume lagega he won't suffer( beautiful lie ).

I mean career ruined ? it's up to her ab USS incident k baad voh apni life rok toh nhi Sakti she has to be strong for the worse if she has a chance to survive that , kitni ladkiya Marr jaati h, Kuch ho jaata h lekin those who have chance then why not survive. Even if she abort kya chance h ki society Bolna chodddegi Kuch kahegi nhi voh tab bhi bolegi Yaar toh USS ko maarke sunne SE Acha h just give him life, raise him ,taught him well and live with proud.

I won't say Ayisha ek emotional ladki thi jazbaaton mey faisla liya krti thi no it's not true , she is the most powerful women . Not just because of her motherly love she kept the baby, if she wants to live then the child also have the right to do the same .   for me she has the guts to go against the society , GUTSY you know and DARING .

 I agree his childhood won't be easy but Yaar how could you say life like hell or more  and u ruin Ur life too an extent too, it's up to her parenting voh ussey Kitna strong banayegi Kaisi parenting degi or, uski life bhi ruined how, there so many single mothers In Our society or unke bhi young age mey Bache hote h but hopeless ni Hoti voh. (I know repeating the same thing ,gaur farmaiye ISS par)

Agar hamara point of view welcoming nhi Hoga toh Yaar aisi kitni Ayisha hongi aage Jo darr k rahengi firse .We have to be strong,Strong enough to raise the kid like total gentle men and showing the whole world ki yes I did it it's possible.

I didn't intend to hurt your feelings or views Intentionally , it's just ki what you guys are talking about is Jo hua h or hota Aaya h but what I want your main concern to bring out the "CHANGE" now.

Hume supportive Hona padega taaki jab hum society Ka part honge then girls like Ayisha doesn't have to feel humiliated have to suffer about this decision of them . Many girls those who wants to keep the baby decided to abort just because the fear of society . I merely want a change in your thought to have a welcoming , supportive and positive approach to this decision also ,I mean you all have that kind of thing too but Kahi na Kahi oppress hojaati h,so if they want to keep the child they don't have to fear the society. Change in mindset can change the future of so many Ayishas also .

This decision is harsh and hard just because society kya bolegi if we try ki yeh decision inke liye hard hi na hone do toh (those who wants ) hn, if we try to just "CHANGE"then . We have to change so that our chotu SA change can make a bigger difference.

Just like how we say ki "teach your boys to behave well then teaching girls to be submissive" same yhi logic h ,Jo cheez log seedha seedha nhi samjh rhe unhe aise samjhana Hoga. kyunki when we grow up tab humse society banegi we will be the part of the society ,agar hum yhi cheez "normal"mey nhi laa paayenge toh what's the point in being the so called responsible citizen ,educated and naari Shakti k maare lagane Ka .

If change in present is not possible then make it for the future this is just like THE WAR FOR TOMORROW AND OF TOMORROW. 

 What we have to focus is on CHANGE nothing else .

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Some beautiful solutions given by Anusha and Sarika :

ANUSHA

Because I am  against keeping the child with her as it will destroy the life of both of them . Atleast giving the child away would give the child a better life because clearly she couldn't abort the child  .

I know this solution is not Ideal and would be very tough for her

But this id is the best I could think of as it's better for both of them 

She will be satisfied that her child is alive and the child will be able to live a normal life.

: I also feel the government should think something about these children and should take the responsibility of such children . I mean should make some rules and arrangement so that such children can lead a normal life as it's not there fault and everybody has a right to live peacefully .

SARIKA:

: And i believe that girls nowadays should know self defence and escaping techniques because we dnt knw wht happnes next with whom and in this case as well ayesha if was able to escape a bit earlier then maybe situation would be not that much worst but it is actually easy to say things like this 

Because when some girls like ayesha are in this kind of sitaution they are not able to think.with presence of mind

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At last I will say ki don't feel offended and hurt just thoda sa iss par gaur krna vakt dena ,plz plz plz m saying again don't feel offended m really sorry ,if you all do feel that way .

#ChangeTheSociety #WeAreTheSociety.

Thank you .😁😁have a nice day 

Comment box is open for all of you ,plz share your thoughts and views and as I have said earlier in my post , all the comments I have till now will be posted soon .

Take care everybody.😁