Friday, March 11, 2022

It's dark in my dreams

 So I don't know how light feels and what darkness meant 
don't know but but there is still something in mid in ,between them ,

I was in a room with proper lightning,
 I stood up went to the darkest room
 closed my eyes I didn't felt any change  but once ,when I opened my eyes I see everything around me was ominous tides of night 
   I ran out from there with the fear. "Ki koi USS andhere mey mujhe mujhse na cheen le  "

Not a single ounce of happiness 
No one to help 
It was pitch dark and I was jailed
Felt sick that can't show my scars too 
Darkness prevailed over me and no moon was there 

Should I try harder to run once again ,
Or should I just stop as I know it
Won't get me anywhere.
Man that was suffocating I died again n again .just to reincarnate at the same place 
Even death was tough for me 
I can't die , the damm god i cursed him 
Why ,why you can't let me even die 

As i know even he was laughing at me 
Being all in a pathetic state 
The god was none other then like Lucas for me 

I cursed him everytime I let him 
Belittle 
Tho that Lucas left me alone 
He let me realise no freaking person is gonna help you out untill you help yourself
No one is going to swim in your stead 
If you want dig up the aragonite.

I used all my strength to look for a door 
My life was like an endless book 
I read it everyday but there was no end ,
But when I took the another step ahead , I founded ,  two doors full of life 
A glimmer of hope just like the inseparable pair of Chandler and Joey.
One was a easy way while another was tough to go through .
I then thought of giving up the light to follow,to open the door  of darkness where no truth lies 
Not a single piece of soul left 
Eyes full of lifelessness,
And heart of crude blood 
I loathed myself to be like this even in my  heed 
when the time came I still chose the light ,no matter how tempting it was to decide
 
But then the biggest joke of my life happened 
I felt from my bed and opened my eyes. 


~ DIvINe ❤️๐ŸŒธ❤️

Hope you all are fine . it's my fault that am here after such a long time as compensation I promise to publish a post once in a month so even you guys have plenty have of time to read and think over .
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Thursday, September 30, 2021

เค–्เคตाเคฌ เคฅा เคŸूเคŸ เค—เคฏा

 เคœिंเคฆเค—ी เค•े เคเคธे เคฎोเคก़ เคชเคฐ เค–เคก़ा เคนूं,

เค”เคฐ เคธोเคš เคฐเคนा เคนूं เคœो เคฌीเคค เค—เคฏा เค•्เคฏा เคตो เคธเคš เคฅा เคฏा เค–्เคตाเคฌ เคฅा เคœिเคธเคฎें เคœीเคคे เค†เคฏा ,

เค…เคธ्เคชเคคाเคฒ เค•े เคตाเคฐ्เคก เคฎें เคชंเค–े เค•ी เค–เคก़ -เค–เคก़ เค†เคตाเคœ เคธुเคจเค•เคฐ เคฏे เค–เคฏाเคฒ เคฎुเคे เคšैเคจ เคธे เคฎเคฐเคจे เคจ เคฆेเค—ा ,

เคคो เค†เคœ เคธเคš เค”เคฐ เคซเคฐेเคฌ เค•ा เคชเคฐเคฆा เค‡เคธ เคšूं -เคšूं เค•เคฐเคคे เคฌिเคธ्เคคเคฐ เคชเคฐ เคนเคŸाเคจा เคชเคก़ेเค—ा ।

เคฏเคน เคธเคš เคฌเคก़ा เคนी เค…เคœीเคฌ เคนै เคชเคฐ เค‡เคธ เคธे เคฎुเค•เคฐเคจा เคฎुเคเคธे เคจ เคนोเค—ा।। 

เคธเคจ् 1975 เค•ा เคตो เคฆिเคจ เคฅा ,

เค†เคœ เคซिเคฐ เคธे เคฌเค—เคฒ เคตाเคฒे เคชเคนเคฒเคตाเคจ เคฐाเคœू เค•े เค˜เคฐ เคธे เค†เคฎ เคšुเคฐाเคจे เคฅे, เคชเคฒเคŸเคจ เคฅी เค…เคชเคจी ,

เคชเคฐ เค‰เคธे เค•เคญी เคšोเคฐी เค•ा เคจाเคฎ เคจ เคฆिเคฏा ,

เคฌเคก़เค•ा เคฌोเคฒเคคा เคฅा" เคฏाเคฐों เคฏे เคšोเคฐी เคจเคนीं เคฏाเคฆें เคฌเคŸोเคฐ เคฐเคนें เคนै "

เคฏाเคฆें เคฌเคŸोเคฐเคคे เคจ เคœाเคจे เค•เคฌ เคตो เคธाเคค เคธाเคฒ เค•ा เคฒเคก़เค•ा เคœो เคฌाเคฐिเคถ เค•े เคชाเคจी เคฎें เค•เคถ्เคคी เคฌเคจाเคคा 14 เคธाเคฒ เค•ा เคนो เค†เคฏा ,

เคœเคตाเคจी เค•ा เคœोเคถ เคฅा เค”เคฐ เคจเค - เคจเค เคซैเคถเคจ เค•ा เค†เค—ाเคœ़ ,

เคฆिเคฒीเคช เค•ुเคฎाเคฐ เคœैเคธे เค•เคชเคก़े เค”เคฐ เคฐाเคœेเคถ เค–เคจ्เคจा เค•े เค—ाเคจों เคชเคฐ เคจाเคšเคจे เค•ा เค…เคฒเค— เคนी เคธเคฐूเคฐ เคนोเคคा เคฅा ।

เคตो เคธ्เค•ूเคฒ เคฌंเค• เค•เคฐเค•े เคธिเคจेเคฎा เคœाเคจा เค”เคฐ เคฎौเคนเคฒ्เคฒे เค•े เคฆाเคฐा เคธिंเคน เคธे เคฎुเคฒाเค•ाเคค เค•िเคธी เคฆूเคง เคฎें เคฎเค•्เค–ी เค•े เค—िเคฐเคจे เคธे เค•เคฎ เคจा เคฅी ।

เคฎेเคฐा (เค…เคฐเคฎाเคจ) เค•्เคฏा เคœाเคจे เคชเคนเคฒी เคฎเคนोเคฌ्เคฌเคค เค•्เคฏा เคนोเคคी เคฅी ,

เคตो เคคो เคฎेเคฐा เคตो เค–्เคตाเคฌ เคฅा เคœो เคฎैเคจे 18 เคฌเคฐเคธ เค•ा เคนोเค•เคฐ เคฆेเค–ा ,

เคจเคˆ เคธीเคข़ी เคชเคฐ เค•เคฆเคฎ เคฐเค–ा เคฅा เค•ॉเคฒेเคœ เค•ी เคฒเคก़เค•ी เคธुเคจीเคคा เค•ो เคฆिเคฒ เคฆे เคฌैเค ा เคฅा ।

เคธเคฒเคฎाเคจ เค•ी' เคคेเคฐे เคจाเคฎ 'เคฆेเค–เค•เคฐ เคฌाเคฒों เค•ा เคชोเคธ्เคŸเคฎाเคฐ्เคŸเคฎ เค•เคฐเคตा เคคो เคฒिเคฏा เคฅा เค”เคฐ เคซ्เคฐी เคฎें เคฌाเคชू เคœी เค•ा เคฐेเคกिเคฏो เคญी เคธुเคจ เคฒिเคฏा ।

เค‰เคธเค•ा เคจंเคฌเคฐ เคคो เคฆूเคฐ, เคฌाเคค เค•เคฐเคจे เคฎें เคญी เคนाเค เคคौเคฌा เคนोเคคी เคฅी,

 เค‰เคจ เคšाเคฐों เค•े เค•เคนเคจे เคชเคฐ เคเค• เคช्เคฐेเคฎ เคชเคค्เคฐ เคญी เคฒिเค– เคกाเคฒा ,เค†เคœ เคญी เคธंเคญाเคฒ เค•เคฐ เคฐเค–ा เคนै 

เค•्เคฏोंเค•ि เค•เคญी เคนिเคฎ्เคฎเคค เคนी เคจ เคนुเคˆ เค‰เคธे เค—ुเคฒाเคฌ เค•े เคธाเคฅ เคฆेเคจे เค•ी ।

เคจा เคœाเคจे เค•्เคฏा เคฒिเค–ा เคฅा เคฎेเคฐे เคจเคธीเคฌ เคฎें 

เคฎเค—เคฐ เคธเคชเคจों เคฎें เคถाเคฆी เคนเคฎाเคฐी เคนो เคšुเค•ी เคฅी ,

เคฏे เค–्เคตाเคฌ เคญी เคฎेเคฐा เคคเคฌ เคŸूเคŸा เคœเคฌ เค‰เคธ เคธुเคจीเคคा เค•ी เคถाเคฆी เคซिเค•्เคธ เคนो เคšुเค•ी เคฅी ।

เคœเคฎเค•เคฐ เคชी เคฅी เค‰เคธ เคฆिเคจ, เค‰เคธเค•ी เคฏाเคฆ เคฎें เคจเคนीं เคฆोเคธ्เคคों เคจे เคœो เคฎेเคฐी เคฒे เคฒी เคฅी เค‰เคธเค•े เค—เคฎ เคฎें ।

เคถेเคฐों เค•ी เคŸोเคฒी เคจे เคฏเคน เคคเคฏ เค•เคฐ เคฒिเคฏा เคฅा เคช्เคฏाเคฐ เคจเคนीं เค•เคฐेंเค—े ,

เคชเคฐ เค•्เคฏा เค•เคฐें เค•เคฎीเคจा เคฆिเคฒ เค•เคญी เคถीเคฒा เคคो เค•เคญी เคฐीเคฎा เคชเคฐ เคซिเคธเคฒ เคนी เคœाเคคा เคฅा ।

เคฌเคก़ा เคนो เค—เคฏा เคคो เค…เคธเคฒ เคœिंเคฆเค—ी เคฎें เคชैเคฐ เคฐเค–ा ,

เคฌाเคช เค—ुเคœเคฐ เค—เคฏा เค”เคฐ เค˜เคฐ เค•ा เคฌเคก़ा เคฅा 

เค‰เคธ เคฆिเคจ เคชैเคฐों เคคเคฒे เคœเคฎीเคจ เค–िเคธเค• เค—เคˆ ,เคฎां เค•ी เคธुเคจी เค•เคฒाเคˆ เคฆेเค– เค”เคฐ เค›ोเคŸी เคฌเคนเคจ เค•ी เค†ंเค–ों เคฎें เคญोเคฒाเคชเคจ 

เคœिเคธे เคจ เคชเคคा เคฅा เค•ि เค•्เคฏा เคนुเค† ,เค‰เคธे เคคो เคธเคฎเคा เคฆिเคฏा เคฅा เค•ी เคชाเคชा เคฆूเคฐ เค—เค เคนै เคฌाเคฆ เคฎें เค†เคฏेंเค—े ,

  เคฎเค—เคฐ เคธเคš เคคो เคฎेเคฐी เค†ंเค–ों เคธे เคจिเค•เคฒ เคฐเคนा เคฅा ।

เคจ เคชเคข़ाเคˆ เคชूเคฐी ,เคนुเคˆ เคจ เคธเคชเคจे 

เคฏे เค–्เคตाเคฌ เคนी เคฅा เคœो เคŸूเคŸ เค—เคฏा।

 เคชाเคธ เค•े เคชंเคšเคฐ เค•ी เคฆुเค•ाเคจ เคตाเคฒे เคจे เคคเคฐเคธ เค–ाเค•เคฐ เค•ाเคฎ เคฆे เคนी เคฆिเคฏा,

เคชैเคธा เค•เคฎाเคฏा เคคो , เค‰เคธ เคฆिเคจ เคชเคคा เคฒเค—ा เค•ि เคฌाเคช เค•ी เคตो เคฎाเคฐ เคœो เคธिเคจेเคฎा เคœाเคจे เคชเคฐ เคชเคก़เคคी เคฅी เค‰เคธเค•ा เคฎเคคเคฒเคฌ เค•्เคฏा เคฅा ।

เคฌเคก़ा เค…เคซเคธเคฐ เคจ เคธเคนी เค‡เคคเคจा เค•ाเคฌिเคฒ เคคो เคฌเคจा เคฆिเคฏा เคฅा เคนाเคฒाเคค เคจे เค•ी เคฌเคนเคจ เค•ी เคถाเคฆी เค”เคฐ เคฎां เค•ा เค—ुเคœाเคฐा เค•เคฐ เคฒिเคฏा เคฅा ।

26 เคธाเคฒ เค•ा เคนोเคคे เคนी เคนाเคฅों เคฎें เค•ाเคฎ เค•ा เคฌोเค เคฆिเค–เคคा ,เคคो เค•ंเคงों เคชเคฐ เคœिเคฎ्เคฎेเคฆाเคฐी ।

เคฎां เคจे เคต्เคฏाเคน เคคो เคฐเคšा เคฆिเคฏा เคฅा ,เคฌाเค•ी เค˜เคฐ เคฎैเคจे เคฌเคธा เคฒिเคฏा 

เคฌเคก़े เค‰เคคाเคฐ เคšเคข़ाเคต เค†เค เคœिंเคฆเค—ी เคฎें เคœो เคฎैเคจे เค”เคฐ เคฎेเคฐी เคชเคค्เคจी เคธुเคถीเคฒा เคจे เคธाเคฅ เคฎें เคेเคฒ เคฒिเค।

เคฆेเค–เคคे เคนी เคฆेเค–เคคे เคฌेเคŸा เคนो เค†เคฏा ,

เค…เคฌ เคฌाเคช เคฌเคจा เคฅा เคคो ,เค…เคชเคจे เคฎเคฐे เคนुเค เคฌाเคช เค•ो เคธเคฎเคเคจे เคฒเค—ा เคฅा ।

เคชเคคा เคจเคนीं เคฒเค—ा เค•เคฌ เค‰เคธเค•ो เคšเคฒเคจा เคธिเค–ाเคคे ,เค–ुเคฆ เคฒाเค ी เคชเค•เคก़เคจे เคฒเค— เคชเคก़ा ।

เค†เคœ เคฎौเคค เคฆเคธ्เคคเค• เคฆे เคฐเคนी เคนै เค…เคชเคจी เคช्เคฐिเคฏ เค•ो เค›ोเคก़เคจे เค•ा เคธเคฎเคฏ เค†เคฏा เคนै ,

เคฌเคนुเคค เคธे เคธเคตाเคฒ เค…เคญी เคญी เคฌाเค•ी เคนैं ,เคฌเคนुเคค เคธे เค–्เคตाเคฌ เค…เคญी เคญी เคฌाเค•ी เคนै ,

เคฎเค—เคฐ เคฎौเค•ा เคนाเคฅ เคธे เคฆौเคก़ा เคœा เคฐเคนा เคนै ,

เคชเคฒเค• เคเคชเค•เคคे เคฌเคšเคชเคจ เคฌीเคค เค—เคฏा  

เคเค• เคฌाเคฐ เค”เคฐ เคชเคฒเค• เคเคชเค•ाเคˆ เคฌเคก़ा เคนो เค—เคฏा 

เคœเคฌ เค†เค–िเคฐी เคฌाเคฐ เคเคชเค•ाเคˆ เคคो เค†ंเค–े เคฌเคจ्เคฆ เค•เคฐเคจे เค•ा เคธเคฎเคฏ เค† เค—เคฏा 

เค…เคฌ เคฎौเค•ा เคฎिเคฒा เคนै เค‰เคจ เค–ूเคฌเคธूเคฐเคค เคฒเคฎ्เคนों เค•ो เคฏाเคฆ เค•เคฐเคจे เค•ा 

เค…เคธเคฒिเคฏเคค เค”เคฐ เค–्เคตाเคฌ เค•ो เคซिเคฐ เคธे เคœीเคจे เค•ा ।

เค…เคฌ เค†ंเค–ें เคฌंเคฆ เค•เคฐ เคฐเคนा เคนूं เค‰เคจ เคฏाเคฆों เค•ो เคชीเค›े เค›ोเคก़े เคœा เคฐเคนा เคนूं ,เค…เคฒเคตिเคฆा เคธाเคฅिเคฏों 

เค…เคชเคจा เค†เค–िเคฐी เคธเคฒाเคฎ เคฆिเค เคœा เคฐเคนा เคนूं ,

เค…เคฒเคตिเคฆा !!!เคธाเคฅिเคฏों เค…เคฒเคตिเคฆा!!!

Hope you like this small poem written by me special thanks to Varsha my one of the dearest sibling jisney poori poem hindi mey type kari thanks alot ๐ŸŒธ๐ŸŒธ✨✨

Waiting for your comments ๐ŸŒธ✨

And hope ki you all will recite this poem to your elders and parents as they can Relate to it more .๐ŸŒธ๐ŸŒธ♥️✨♥️✨

Thursday, August 12, 2021

Hardcore

 It's very hard trying to live my life 

Everytime I move on I went even deep inside

The loneliness surounded me no one was there,

To keep me company .


I was hungry tho food was there 

I was frustrated tho no one bothered me 

I was crying tho no one hit me 

I was sorrunded by all the emotions I never felt.

I felt guilty tho any of these things happening to me wasn't my fault .


All the negativity became my friends 

Positive vibes were no less then hell .


That was late when I realized 

I kept the door closed of my happiness 

By neglecting all the good things from my bad time around .


But I still stand the chance to change who I became then ,


Balance is what added flavour to my life 

Co-operations with my family , were tangy and sour  kept me awake for the nights ,

I had dark circles but was not exhausted at all.

Kindness and help from my peers  serve as the sweet dish to my appetite .


When I thought back of the time now ,

It wasn't easy to overcome still thanks to everyone , who helped me in those toughest hours of my journey.


All the dearies ,choices can be complex many times but you have to think wisely everytime. 

Help yourself first ,stand up !

only then you will find the bright light of this universe .



Plz share your comments , it's pleasure to see a active participation. Suggestions are always welcome.๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜♥️♥️

So till next blog ... Peace out ♥️♥️

Friday, July 9, 2021

Deflowered (part-2)

 Hello everyone hope you all are doing fine and leading a happy life .  

In India ,

*India recorded an average of 87 rapecases daily in 2019 and overall 4,05,861 cases of crime against women during the year, a rise of over 7% from 2018, the latest government data released on September 29, 2020.

*One rape was reported every 16 minutes in Indiain 2019.

Not only girls even boys are counted too. This is what the census is like and these are all about registered cases ,still  so many unregistered cases are there,Jo  samaaj k darr se ,bejjati k darr Kabhi file hi nhi hote . 

These are all facts, we can't change.

In our previous post we all got to know about Ayisha , her life, her journey ,her struggle and her sorrowful past.

And this story is about the same only. Brief jist : Ayisha a teen ,who got pregnant after getting bruttaly raped and decided to keep her baby  . I have told you about her decision but not about the struggle she faced .

In Indian society after ,sexually assault ,according to them ,Zindagi vhi Ruk jaati h and by any chance, she got pregnant that means a Hell. And for god sake if she decides to keep the baby like Ayisha ,means bichare zinda toh honge lekin pal pal maut k ghaat utaare jaayenge(commo

n thinking) , har second izzat ki dhajjiyaan udaayi jaayegi ,Ganda khoon , slut , and many things . Ayisha faced the same thing when she decided to keep the baby kya Kuch nhi Kaha Hoga  logon ne but she choose to block all those comments and to move on with what she decided. 

As one of my friend said 

"Indian society and I don't think it  was possible to her to be a mother as such a young age she wasn't physically , financially , emotionally  and mentally ready for this. It is easier said than done  as giving birth to a child and raising a child are two different things . And she was ready to abort the child untill she knew that she can't conceive again so she could adopt a child when she was ready for being a mother financially and mentally . I won't support  giving such a life to a child  Which is worse than hell because he won't be able to live peacefully as he will not get his rights will be discriminated and will have to fight for each and every single thing  and it's no benifit in living like that ." - Anusha .

This is what girls like Ayisha fear ,ki they won't be able to live peacefully ,will be discriminated and have to fight continuously. I won't deny these things as we all know it's the bitter truth of  society.(rest read further also)

Another thing now which is totally different ,so sorry but my intentions are not to harm anyone ,

so another point of view ,

"Hi Don'take me wrong but I feel the view presented here is quite heroic and not practical. It's ok if it's a film or serial, to show a happy ending. But in real life your story actually starts from here. I feel it's rarely that people take this decision until and unless they can't abort the child due to medical reasons. 

Also, the motive of the person doing wrong was to hurt you and ruin your life. And you have done it yourself now. Having a child at such a young age and that too being a single mother is not a piece of cake.

Can't even imagine what she has to go through in INDIAN SOCIETY and of course her career is also totally ruined. It might be looking generous and  motherly keeping the child, but when you think deeply, you realise the moment the child comes in this world, he will have to fight with every force tagging and disgracing him and his mom. 

So, simply it won't be a good childhood to go through. Don't kill the child, but give a life to him that is worse than hell. And ruin your life to the greatest possible extent,  when it could all have been ok with moving on.This is what this solution represents. Yes, I agree it's not that easy as it seems, but difficult way will give you a fruitful life and the emotionally chosen one will be giving a harsh and humiliating one. If you are mentally strong enough, go for keeping the child, but if you have even slightest of the doubt, abort it. This is the solution according to me."- ARSHDEEP

Now would like to share my thoughts, my point of view here , first it's not like a tv'c it's not  for sure like ki It's only possible in Hindi drama ,then I must say ki it's just a "veham" these things can exist, can happen too and it's not like ki everytime if a girl got raped then conceived ,took the decision to raise the child ,only have a dead end or bad ending why we think like that ?why? If we say ki nothing is impossible then why it is not possible ? It's not completely compulsory ki she will only meet disgusting people who will taunt her on the basis for her ,she will also meet those people who will support her stand  up for her and those people will make impossible " I AM POSSIBLE".  Just because I didn't mention what she suffered doesn't mean ki idk what she would have gone thru.       

I know it's not a piece of cake but she decided that so she already have thought about ki what it will be like in future . When  These things happen ,koi aisa decision leta h toh hum pahele hi yeh sochana shuru KR dete h ki she must have gone insane ,took the decision emotionally, not practical enough ,but yeh bhul jaate h ki she might have thought it through beforehand ,why can't we keep this in our hypothesis too ,pahele SE yhi bolna ki it's wrong without asking about their POV is wrong .

 And I strongly disapproves ki after giving birth her career will be ruined ,how?  In ancient times women used to conceive in their teens only and still they were able to have a good life and good career too, there are so many single mothers around us who got pregnant at young age conceive and now are successful . It's all in our mind that's it ,just a myth nothing else.  Hum yeh Bolte h "aurat chahe toh kya Kuch nhi KR Sakti "so apply bhi krna chahiye . Zindagi Ruk nhi jaati h voh chalti rehati h lekin thammte hamare kadam h .   About the baby ,having a life worse then hell I must say one thing ki kya garauntee h if she have another child after getting married will be respected, won't be disgraced, if that is the truth then this is also the truth ki even that child have to suffer and will you all be able to say ki his life is worse then hell , no kyunki that is the kid after marriage that's it ,he would have a surname, a father's name bas ,toh Hume lagega he won't suffer( beautiful lie ).

I mean career ruined ? it's up to her ab USS incident k baad voh apni life rok toh nhi Sakti she has to be strong for the worse if she has a chance to survive that , kitni ladkiya Marr jaati h, Kuch ho jaata h lekin those who have chance then why not survive. Even if she abort kya chance h ki society Bolna chodddegi Kuch kahegi nhi voh tab bhi bolegi Yaar toh USS ko maarke sunne SE Acha h just give him life, raise him ,taught him well and live with proud.

I won't say Ayisha ek emotional ladki thi jazbaaton mey faisla liya krti thi no it's not true , she is the most powerful women . Not just because of her motherly love she kept the baby, if she wants to live then the child also have the right to do the same .   for me she has the guts to go against the society , GUTSY you know and DARING .

 I agree his childhood won't be easy but Yaar how could you say life like hell or more  and u ruin Ur life too an extent too, it's up to her parenting voh ussey Kitna strong banayegi Kaisi parenting degi or, uski life bhi ruined how, there so many single mothers In Our society or unke bhi young age mey Bache hote h but hopeless ni Hoti voh. (I know repeating the same thing ,gaur farmaiye ISS par)

Agar hamara point of view welcoming nhi Hoga toh Yaar aisi kitni Ayisha hongi aage Jo darr k rahengi firse .We have to be strong,Strong enough to raise the kid like total gentle men and showing the whole world ki yes I did it it's possible.

I didn't intend to hurt your feelings or views Intentionally , it's just ki what you guys are talking about is Jo hua h or hota Aaya h but what I want your main concern to bring out the "CHANGE" now.


Hume supportive Hona padega taaki jab hum society Ka part honge then girls like Ayisha doesn't have to feel humiliated have to suffer about this decision of them . Many girls those who wants to keep the baby decided to abort just because the fear of society . I merely want a change in your thought to have a welcoming , supportive and positive approach to this decision also ,I mean you all have that kind of thing too but Kahi na Kahi oppress hojaati h,so if they want to keep the child they don't have to fear the society. Change in mindset can change the future of so many Ayishas also .

This decision is harsh and hard just because society kya bolegi if we try ki yeh decision inke liye hard hi na hone do toh (those who wants ) hn, if we try to just "CHANGE"then . We have to change so that our chotu SA change can make a bigger difference.

Just like how we say ki "teach your boys to behave well then teaching girls to be submissive" same yhi logic h ,Jo cheez log seedha seedha nhi samjh rhe unhe aise samjhana Hoga. kyunki when we grow up tab humse society banegi we will be the part of the society ,agar hum yhi cheez "normal"mey nhi laa paayenge toh what's the point in being the so called responsible citizen ,educated and naari Shakti k maare lagane Ka .

If change in present is not possible then make it for the future this is just like THE WAR FOR TOMORROW AND OF TOMORROW. 

 What we have to focus is on CHANGE nothing else .

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Some beautiful solutions given by Anusha and Sarika :

ANUSHA

Because I am  against keeping the child with her as it will destroy the life of both of them . Atleast giving the child away would give the child a better life because clearly she couldn't abort the child  .

I know this solution is not Ideal and would be very tough for her

But this id is the best I could think of as it's better for both of them 

She will be satisfied that her child is alive and the child will be able to live a normal life.

: I also feel the government should think something about these children and should take the responsibility of such children . I mean should make some rules and arrangement so that such children can lead a normal life as it's not there fault and everybody has a right to live peacefully .

SARIKA:

: And i believe that girls nowadays should know self defence and escaping techniques because we dnt knw wht happnes next with whom and in this case as well ayesha if was able to escape a bit earlier then maybe situation would be not that much worst but it is actually easy to say things like this 

Because when some girls like ayesha are in this kind of sitaution they are not able to think.with presence of mind

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At last I will say ki don't feel offended and hurt just thoda sa iss par gaur krna vakt dena ,plz plz plz m saying again don't feel offended m really sorry ,if you all do feel that way .

#ChangeTheSociety #WeAreTheSociety.

Thank you .๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜have a nice day 

Comment box is open for all of you ,plz share your thoughts and views and as I have said earlier in my post , all the comments I have till now will be posted soon .

Take care everybody.๐Ÿ˜

Thursday, July 1, 2021

Deflowered (part-01)

 [02-april-2017,

Knock knock ,

Anyone here ? hello myself Ayisha ,what's up guys ?๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ So today is my first day at school I mean  it's my new school , freaking excited ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ˜Ž, oops! forgot to tell you am in 12 standard yea yea Mera last year h or school change don't ask me the reason kyu Kiya bas kr liya . Idk wether I will be able to adjust or not ,man! who cares let it be for now ,me gotta enjoy to the fullest aakhir apni koi repo vagera bhi banani h Yaar school mey . Gtg๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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Yoi ,m back Huh!!! my first day was tiring miss Pushpa my maths teacher she irritates the hell out of me bas Baar Baar mujhse SE hi har question Pooche jaari thi hadd h ,hn ni toh or haaye hamare Eng k sir he is so handsome ๐Ÿ˜—๐Ÿ˜— whatever don't misunderstand okay ,baaki classmates are awesome, friendly h or baaki , Harsh ,a guy in my class he is so nerd types kya hi bataun ,everytime playing with phone in the class  , always surrounded by girls and thoda body builder types ,we don't vibe not even a least bit totally opposite . Raviz and Christ they both are nice girls I mean we share a great bond ig๐Ÿ˜ถ ,just like we were meant to be friends ,destined bosom friends . 

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 A whole month passed ,now gotten  used to my new school ,made friends , everything seems normal . Ab toh summer vacations aari h.๐Ÿ˜Œ๐Ÿ˜Œ.

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After 1 whole year ...

Hii guys meet my sweety Anu my child my baby Anirudh,he is only a  month year old . He is surprisingly cute and too small . Have to carry him very carefully   he is so soft and fragile ki if i hold him thoda sa tight   he might break one or few of his limbs ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†how cute .


You all guys must be surprised ki Mai kya bol rhi hu voh bhi poore 1 Saal baad ,don't think m mad I really got a child . This whole year was  hell for me I suffered ,I tried to run away ,I cried , got panic attacks ,depression  and many things . You all must be curious ki why ?? Why?? And why ?? 


M going to share my painful past now here with you all ,

it was june my summer break was going on I was happy doing my holiday homework ,parties with friends and all that was quite a fun time for me but one day ,on 18 June my life changed , Jo hua ,that was the turning point . It was 6 pm In the park , was jogging or at 7 on my way back home  ... got kidnapped ...mujhe nhi pata tha ki where I was what's going on with me I was drugged at that time and there was a man ...bruttaly assaulted me I wasn't even in my senses to ask out for help  , my whole body was numb ,lying there helplessly . After whole night passed ,I managed escape somehow, only ik ki how I managed to do so at that time,that was totally horrible for me .


When I came back at my home in a total messed up state , parents questioned kya hua ,what happened ,bolo Kuch ,but aisa tha ki aavaaz hi ni Nikal rhi thi everything was blank ,not able to understand what they were saying wasn't able to accept ki Jo hua voh real tha  ,after a whole half an hour  I blurted out everything that took me a lot of courage , my family was not able to digest this fact ,I lost control over my conciousness felt dizzy and dheere dheere Andhera SA hone laga and suddenly total black out ,my parents launched the complaint I was admitted to the nearby hospital . 2 weeks passed i was still in the coma then ,mujhe Sab sunaayi dera tha I was able to hear my parents cry ,begging me to woke up but Mai toh uthna hi ni chahti thi bas bhula dena chahti thi Jo hua , after sometime I decided to face the reality and then my body started showing response Sab mujhme improvement dekhkar Khush the but dukhi bhi the mere future k baaremey sochke yeh sochke k unki beti k Saath yeh kya ho gya . 

Month passed away ,started feeling better Sab Kuch normal hone laga tha Mai voh sab bhulaane lagi thi  ,thanks to Dr. Pallavi my counsellor she encouraged me motivated me helped me a lot during the hardest stage of my life .


School got started ,everything get back to normal on surface for me ,firbhi ek darr Beth gya tha Mann mey , parents took extra care of me mujhe Akela na chodna akele na jaane dena everything. Only Raviz and Christ knows ki kya hua tha merese and few teachers that's it ,it was fine for me . 

Then suddenly I got Dizzy and fell from the chair ,at first nothing happened then after that I got Nauseous ,  vomiting and started feeling weak. Parents took me  to clinic and pata Chala I was 1month 4weeks pregnant. Another huge blow on me .

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Huh... lost my state of mind at first don't want to accept locked up myself in my room for days ,counselling ,  depression anxiety or got myself so stressed thinking about the thing inside my body . Yeh baat accept krne mey mujhe aadha mahina lagg gya . I was in the rehab centre at that time. So after 2 months my parents and I approved for the abortion went to gaynecologist but got another hit ki due to my weak body I won't be able to conceive next time  if we abort now . I believed ki my body sucks for sure .why is it all happening to me only why ? Questioned myself doubted myself and blamed the divinity at then end .


Maine bht socha iss baaremey ki Jo Mai KR rhi hu voh fair Hoga Uske liye who isn't even born yet , do I really need to kill this child . After that I made up my mind and decided to keep the child ,hn my parents were against my decision got myself in fight with them but ladkar datkar Sab Kuch krke they finally agreed they don't have the option either .


Don't think ki Maine abort isliye nhi Kiya cuz there won't be any next time but shaayad due to my instinct . Hardest desicion ever sabne Kaha pagal ho gyi h, it's wrong your future will be destroyed ,bht Sunna padega ,akele itni choti Umar, how will you manage but I didn't care ,darr mujhe bhi lag Raha tha ki kya Hoga ,kaise Hoga ,Sahi Hoga ya nhi . Par I decided to face that I decided to keep the baby for the sake of his future I don't want to regret ki Maine kisise uski life mey aane Ka right hi le liya aakhir the child was totally innocent he was not at fault . 


Jo good news sabko life mey Naya feel Naya experience laati h that news made me confuse, wether I be happy or not ,do I have the right to do so what does maternal feeling feel like , I will be a mom so will I have those instincts ,that other mothers have . Butterflies in stomach want to be happy ,but at the same time thinking should I be or not these mixed feelings ufff.

It is said "EVERY CLOUD HAS SILVER LINNING " this line inspired me and I opened my arms to welcome my child  to live a new life , to start over again, to give another kick in my life . I was well aware with the fact ki  with baby responsibilities will be there ,I was already prepared for all that .


I still gave my boards exams ( open schooling ) got my certificate ,gave birth to my child , now m raising him and doing my college from open . That was a harsh descion still I don't regret . ]

THE END 


So guys how are you all hope you all are doing fine . Met after a long time . ☺️☺️

So don't get confused ki yeh kya tha ,

Yeh thi Ayisha ki kahani , short story basically. It's harsh terrible ,scary and quite pitful story, I won't say pitful I will say a very inspiring story . This took me a lot of courage as it's a very controversial topic people have different opinions so slightly scared . There are many parts with less explainations as I wasn't able to write them I felt sorry for that. Do forgive me for that  .

 I wasn't able to elaborate few emotions properly sorry for that also , don't mind plz๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿ˜ž. As some emotions needs a special touch hope ki to some extent there is that special feel. Hope you all liked the story and get to know about another perspective.

QUESTION TIME๐Ÿค“๐Ÿค“


I want to ask everyone if you were Ayisha aap sabka kya decision hota ? What would have been your choice ? Was her descion correct or not and why ? 

Now the platform is yours , share your thoughts or suggestions  in comment section.


Looking forward for the answers of the questions I asked . people have different point of view so i request don't feel offended by anything . Just share your views and I will make sure to add those of your comments in my next blog as I will be sharing my point of view also next time .


Hope to see you soon take care and think deeply or wisely. And make sure to get vaccination on time .